Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Outside of Self


I'm feeling very reflective this morning. My thoughts dwell on a friend who is battling bone cancer. She is now linked through the hospital website to keep friends & family updated on her daily happenings on her journey as she prepares for the bone marrow transplant. She is very, very near to God, very positive, joyous & powerfully faithful.

I'm going to borrow some excerpts from her journal to show you what I mean:

"I'm now preparing for a stem cell transplant scheduled for Oct 22nd (my new birthdate). I'm my own donor. I will turn 46 years old on Oct 19th and I'm looking forward to another 45 years of life...my prayer is for my life to bring glory to God!"

"I want the unsaved to say: there has to be a God because Cassie could not have gone thru this the way she has on her own without Christ. And I want the saved to be assured without a shadow of a doubt that there truly is a living Christ who is in total and complete control of every aspect of our lives and He loves us so much. He is with us every step of the way and He will NEVER leave or forsake us."

Now, how did I possibly wake this morning, grouchy because it's Tuesday, I'm tired/sleepy, I was out of coffee, no motivation for work when 3,000 mile away, my friend battles the big fight, yet exudes such brightness & faith? I feel like a heel as I step outside of myself & learn a lesson from my friend.

Prayerful for you always, dear Cassie.

3 comments:

  1. Tracey dear, don't be too hard on yourself. It's perfectly human and natural to be down at times when we are having a perfectly normal day. I pray your friend Cassie not only survives, but thrives. I know the road she is on will not be easy. Please update us occasionally. I will remember her in my prayers. Hugs, Sharon

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  2. Thanks, Sharon, for your prayers & thoughts. I love that CaringBridge website that Cassie is connected through; what better way than to let someone know you're thinking of them right when they need it most. Technology continues to amaze. The more she updates,the worse off I realize she's been, but she's always so positive & uplifting, you would never know. God bless her :-)

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  3. Tracey....it was meant for you that day to learn the lesson and your friend, in her small way, was the catalyst for your to see it. May both she and you always be sheathed in glorious light.

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