NaBloPoMo, Day 20

I'm just joining in at Day 20; don't ask me why I'm so late because I truly won't have an answer. Lol.

"Do you have a book in you? Fact or fiction? Related to your blog or totally different?

 

For as much as I love to write, I don't have any type of book that would be worth publishing inside of me. In fact, it's more like an ongoing daydream as I'm a hopeless romantic. You know - like some sort of Hallmark movie. It's completely different from my blog.

 

I'm always dreaming of:

• Living in a big, beautiful, old farmhouse
• with a big, strapping beautiful man
• who absolutely could not live without me
• and me without him
• he chops wood for our fire places
• he builds anything from nothing
• he raises goats to keep the grass down on our acreage
• we hold hands & go for long walks
• we snuggle in front of the fire place
• and then we live happily ever after  and all that shit

See? There is no book inside me.

 

Just dreams.

"me and he"

 

NaBloPoMo 3/22/14

Try something new.

I decided to try water colors. After all, on a 'craft binge', I bought multiple sizes brushes, water colors and a painting pad. Why? Who knows, but now I'm glad I did. After sitting on a shelf for a few months, I dove in. Then I thought to try ink, stamps & other little things.

I like the "kindergarten" effect of them all. Lol.

The 'wheels of my craft brain' are always turning. :-)

NaBloPoMo 3/21/2014

Updates & Thoughts:

• on this second day of Spring, we got about three inches of snow this morning
• a year ago this very day, I was fired from my job of 11 years
• i'm still job searching, trying not to freak over finances, staying prayerful & faithful
• i took another step toward creating my photo website and created this banner:

 

•   Why is it taking so long, you may ask? Because I don't know what I'm doing. Lol!!! Just when I get my interests peaked, I suddenly back out. I still can't believe that folks would actually buy my stuff
• I find with downtime, I'm cooking more serious dinners during the week as opposed to the 'Sunday dinner.' Last nite was meatloaf w/gravy, scalloped potatoes, fresh collard greens & corn muffins:

•  "D" just called from work & told me the meatloaf was so very kick ass!!! Yay! He said I really nailed it this time & whatever I did; don't ever change it. (My secret is dry onion soup mix & salsa instead of ketchup; give it a try!! :-)
• If I hear the song "Happy" again by Pharrell, my ears will bleed. I like it, but enough is enough already

Finally, the NaBlo prompt for today: Friday, March 21, 2014 - Do you do more for yourself or for others? I DEFINITELY do more for others before I do for myself. Even when I'm out in public, I'll go the extra step to make sure a person who needs help gets it. I'm a giver & doer for others; it makes me feel so good. Like a win/win situation.

Ciao!!

Randoms

I'll admit that in 2014, I want to fly. If I only had the courage. Let go of the fear.

I don't want to drag any 2013 baggage along

I want to realize what is real in my life, stop allowing emptiness & look at the big picture

Life would be perfect if: Some girls had mute buttons; Some guys had edit buttons; Hard times had fast forward buttons; And Good times had pause buttons.

I continue to be interested in new things that seem old, and old things that seem new.

That kinda day

The best thing

one can do

when it's raining

is to

let it rain ~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Caution: Random Crossings

WHAT A GORGEOUS DAY it is today. After the heat & rain of yesterday, the temps have gone back down into high 70's, not a cloud in the sky & I can barely wait to get out of the office!

Over the weekend of June 8-10th, Son will be going to Adult Weekend Camp. We got the list in the mail of items he'll need to bring which translates into nearly everything you would need in life! He's so excited, and I'm excited for him to experience staying away from home for a couple of days & nights.

My sister &; her fiance threw a wonderful summer kick off cook-out @ their home over Memorial holiday; what will be their ongoing tradition. My mom has (or used to have) the "Hot Dog Extravaganza" every summer, my other sister has the "Ohio State/Michigan Party" every Fall, and now the Summer Kick-off. I don't have a theme for anything, but I do invite folks to my porch & patio. Nothing to write home about, but it' cozy.

 I think it sounds funny to say that I'm soon to be 49 years old. I can remember when I was 17, I used to look @ myself in the mirror & ask myself, 'wonder what will I look like when I'm 25, then 30. I don't know what I thought I would 'morph' into, but I'm pretty happy with myself. I still feel like a teenager inside even if the ole body tries to tell me differently.

I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up... :-)

I wish I had a "Busha" (Polish for Grandmother), or a grandmother, preferably one with some spunk.  We have an 89-year old client who goes dancing twice a week w/her boyfriend. She's always dressed to the hilt & exudes so much life & spark! She would be such a positive influence on me.

The on the other hand, I wish my neighbors were the gay couple of Modern Family. No offense to anyone, but men whom are gay are the most honest, upbeat, positive, 'live your best life' type of people. My mom always told me they're the best friend you could ever have & I believe it. They're comfortable w/themselves & not afraid to show it. I saw a couple @ the nursery truly GUSHING over the beauty of a Calla Lily. It made me smile.

And I think we'd be great neighbors. :-)

Honored!!

I am honored to accept this award @ nomination from Sharon @ Chaos Ranch!!!! I truly appreciate the shout-out and am grateful to everyone that happens by here.

Here are 10 things about me that wouldn't be commonly known:

1. I am the 7th youngest of nine children
2. I am ambidextrous, but can only write with my left hand
3. I'm a pretty good basketball player
4. I'm a good cook
5. I always wanted to be a kindergarten teacher
6. I used to have a good singing voice & always wanted to be a back-up singer
7. I've always typed no less than 70wpm
8. I used to be a serious tom-boy
9. My mother sent me to charm school (scream!)
10. I used to be a clarinet band nerd & still have my original horn in my closet. Yeah... since high school. Freaky.

And now, here are six blogs I like to read; I adore so many :-)

1. http://momentarysolace.blogspot.com/
2. http://soulaperture.blogspot.com/
3. http://sophistishe.com/
4. http://thesweetlight.com/
5. http://www.etsy.com/shop/RedBarnStudios?ref=top_trail (blog under construction)
6. http://bferry.wordpress.com/

Thanks again!! :-)

10 words i love to hate

1. The "N" word
2. The "B" word
3. The "hate" word
4. "Retard"
5. "Stupid"
6. "Dumb"
7. all slang words re: a person's ethnicity
   
8. trash (when referring to a person)
9. "deaf & dumb" (deaf people have got us hearing folk beat by a mile.... or two)
10. any negative word directed to a child or a person w/low self-esteem
    

Pic by: me
Daydreaming on Paper: "list 10 words that you hate"

the 10 best

"Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim.
Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself." ~Harvey Fierstein

The 10 best things about being me are:

1. there is no one else like me
2. there is no one else who looks like me
3. there is no one else who thinks like me, we can have like thoughts, but my thoughts are my own
4. i have an uncanny ability to make myself & others laugh till they (we) cry
5. i never encounter a stranger. never.
6. i have a huge smile that i easily share - always
   
7. i am blessed to have an autistic son. others may have this, but i feel especially 'appointed' by God
   
8. i am generous to a fault (if someone admires something i have, i will give it to 'em, even though i want it for myself)
9. i have a laid-back, 'everything will be okay' attitude - always
10. i never hesitate to let out my inner-child and let myself play, no matter who is watching

Pictures by: me :0}

Daydreaming on Paper word prompt: "10 best things about being you"

Creativity is...

... opening your mind & allowing your thoughts and/or ideas

to become something real, touchable, personal, special...

or ...

... it is seeing something that some would see as broken, ruined, destroyed

and turning it into

something beautiful.

Pictures by: me :}
Daydreaming on Paper prompt: "what is creativity? how do you define it?"

High on Arrival

Some years ago, my sister, treated me to Oprah's weekend workshop "Live Your Best Life."
In San Francisco.
It was a whirlwind of unbelievable. Flew out Friday & in on Sunday. I was so full of exhilaration & on such a high. It lasted for days on end. Overwhelming enough to go from being at work one day, then the next seeing the beauty of the City. Then the next day, spending the entire day in the presence of Oprah. Unreal.
While my sister & I were trying to sneak pictures that weren't allowed, security asked us if we wanted to greet Ms. Winfrey as she "exited the limo."
Then there she was. "This" close.
The afternoon spent w/2,500+ women (& some men) & Oprah was the amazing experience (besides child birth) ever. O is really the shit; a huge force to be reckoned with, but SUPER funny! And very down-home, like a cousin or something. She kicked off the stiletto's & wore her slippers 5 min. into coming out on stage. By the end of the workshop, it felt like I had 2,498 new friends. The feeling of self-love & sisterhood made me glow.

On the plane coming back home (it was clear flying out - you could see the ground below from Ohio to S.F.; same way coming home), I was SO giddy, I filled nearly 1/2 the journal Oprah passed out (PS: she did give away some cool stuff - I still use the duffle bag.) It was a blessed gift from my sister! For me, that is one great memory I'll not forget. It was the last time I got really excited about something!*



After a week or so, my hyper level mellowed & my life returned to it's routine.

"But that is the beginning of a new story..."**

Pictures: internet
*Daydreaming on Paper
**Carry On Tuesday

This is the truth about me

1. Sometimes I feel inadequate, even though I know I am enough
   
2. I don't consider my job as a legal assistant to be a 'career', even though I've been doing this type of work for over 15 years
   
3. I try to do everything at once (Adult ADHD???)
   
4. I'm an impulse buyer
5. I am still looking love that I can return, wholly, unconditionally & truthfully, even though I've been in present relationship for 21 years
   
6. I never meet a stranger
7. I am open & welcoming to everyone, but close myself off to having close friends
8. I pray that God's plan for me include helping those less fortunate than I
9. Even though my autistic son is now 23 years old, being wholly responsible for his advancing into adulthood terrifies me more than when he was a child
   
10. Some days when I'm in a thoughtful mood, I can go nearly all day without saying a word

"Daydreaming on Paper" word thoughts: "This is the truth about me"

Pictures by: me :-) (I have an uncanny love for sea shells. They are art for the taking if you take your time & look)