He who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the Lord.
Prayers of safety and a safe return of my great nephew, Arin, as he's deployed in the Navy. He and his beautiful wife, Kristen, (also in the Navy) very recently loss their baby girl at five month before she was born. I had the pleasure of giving them the gift of shooting their wedding this past September. To everything there is a season, turn, turn, turn.
I have decided to drop the NaBloPoMo commitment of daily writing. I'm doing a crappy job of keeping up on the regular, so I'll just blog w/out obligation. There are some days when I don't get online at all, so the 'daily' goes out the window
James (son) blessed me w/six perfect carnations for V.Day. I'm surprised they make it home in tact; when he was younger, I would sometimes get stems. Lol. The red soothes me.
D & I didn't exchange anything this year. We rarely do.
February 2, 2014: "Helpless" Helplessness: that dull, sick feeling of not being the one at the reins. When did you last feel like that –- and what did you do about it?
I think I mentioned in an earlier blog that I was let from a job that I had at a church working with disabled men & women. I met all expectations of the job, however, they then wanted me to become a commercial van driver to transport clients.
As I suffer from anxiety, this was completely out of the question. I explained time & time again that I would not feel such taking on such task, yet my words fell on deaf ears. I was called in, given an excellent 90 review, but was released to 'for not having the ability to adapt.'
I never felt more helpless in my life. This is a job where it was constant instant gratification and love. I looked forward to going & drug me feet when time to leave. Anxiety is a real, paralyzing condition and for someone to look at me in such a way really hurt.
The only thing I could do was take it to God, accept it and realize that He has a different path for me. Trusting and believe.