"Perhaps I am stronger than I think!" ~ Thomas Merton

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Suspicious?


In standing in justice for the Travyon Martin family, my son and I show our solidarity by giving "hoddies" a whole new meaning. When will folks realize that 99.9% of pleasing God is loving each other as we do ourselves? We gain nothing by hating. Prayers for everyone, all around.

Thankful & blessed

Happy Sunday, all!

I haven't given any Thankful Thursdays lately, but I am truly thankful for so much!!

Here is our Sweet Baby Tuesday, girl!!! Hasn't she grown & changed so? She's up to 9 pounds now - what her dad weighed when he was born. I had better hurry & send her outfits, etc., before she outgrows. I am so thankful she's thriving, isn't she beautiful? :-)


My next HUGE thanks is to God for letting the amazing Cassie thrive in spite of her trials and tribulations with her health. She has pressed on so that she is now a Sitting Judge in Training (she doesn't like when I call her "judge" already). She's here with her very own Bailiff.

But how great is God, really? Cassie has been near death so many times, yet here she stands, proudly, in her judge's robe. Who would've thought she would've made it from the Caring Bridge Cancer Center to this very moment? To say I am proud of her is the understatement of the century.

Palms clasped in prayer of thanks.

The Rest of the Story


My skin feels tight
I feel boxed in
I'm a bloom digging her way through the earth
Growing toward the sunlight and fresh air
and new growth in a new season

My breath feels short
Tight inside my chest
It is fighting to get out
To inhale, then exhale
All the fresh air it's been missing

My thoughts feel trapped
They feel restricted
From conforming to what others
think they should be

But my resolve is strong
It is tired, pissed & it is determined,
To regain that patch of sunshine
Where I will sit & enjoy the company
of myself

And I will live The Rest of the Story...

Pictures by: me ;-}
Sunday Scribblings word prompt: "the rest of the story"

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Honest


I have found that when folks say that they want honesty, that honesty is not what they're looking for at all.

I believe that sometimes they have versions of honesty that require hearing only what they want to hear.

I have found that when you hold honesty in for long, and it finally exposes itself, it strikes a nerve in those who doubt your honesty. Because you never exposed it.

So, speak only with honesty and truth at all times, so you'll never be doubted.

And that is the honest truth.

Pictures by: me

Sunday Scribbling word prompt: "honest"

Monday, March 12, 2012

Suspended Reality

On the side of the road; the sunrise through the cat o' nine's

Happy 'not really spring, yet'! We're 12 days into March with little to no present or past snow to speak of. Daffodils and Crocuses are all over the place. Yesterday, Son & I took the first annual walk of 'not spring.' Since I took over 90 pictures, I ask you to please take a quick sec & check only 50 'em here. Lol. When you get there, hit "Album Options/View Slideshow/" These shots are a few of them; I called the album "Signs of Spring' to catch everyone coming out of hibernation.
There were dog walkers, roller-bladers, bike riders, plenty of strollers, couples, grills, mini-picnics, motorcycles. etc. It's kinda hard to take pictures of folks without them looking right at you. I usually act like I'm focusing on something else :-)

I was surprised to see bees gathering pollen already. The willow is budding in the back & there's a stray grey cat hanging around, screaming to get inside for some reason. Don't know what it is about my house, but the dogs ain't feelin' the cat. At all. :-\
Otherwise, I'm back to driving again. The anxiety attacks are still underlying, but very mild. I feel more comfortable driving the smaller car for some reason. I had my first meeting with "Dr. Julie", the psych the doctor recommended. It was so/so; I did all the talking & basically told her everything I KNOW I need to do. She told me I had great insight. She's also a very faith-based counselor, so I felt good about that right off the bat. We're every other week for now.

Dr. J also told me I needed to treat myself more kindly, delegate & lose the guilt I'm drawn to. Today when I woke up & started the Monday routine, I realized how exhausted I truly am. I visualized total chaos at work & opted to give myself rest instead. I took a vacation day, laid down & woke up 3-1/2 hours later.

Having rested in total suspended reality.
"Son - my walking buddy"

Sunday Scribbling word prompt: suspended reality

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Search


In my days of feeling confused

Frightened

Unsure

Lost

Insecure

and uncertain

I search for beauty to bring me peace.


Pictures by; me (St. Joseph's Catholic Church)
Sunday Scribbling post: "Search"